Reflections on Influence: The Women Who Shaped My Life

Introduction: A Retrospective View

As I look back over the years, I am struck by the profound influence that the women in my life have had on me. While their impact has been multifaceted, there is a recurring theme of control and manipulation that stands out. Their actions have often left me in a state of confusion and self-doubt, forcing me to reassess my own desires and needs.

Control and Manipulation

One of the most striking patterns I identified is the control exerted by these women. They have a way of taking what they want, often leaving me to fend for myself. This control is not always overt; it can be subtle, manifesting as emotional manipulation or through seemingly benign requests that accumulate over time. The result is a gradual erosion of my autonomy, leaving me feeling powerless and dependent.

The Blame Game

Equally troubling is the tendency to shift the blame back onto me. Whenever conflicts arise or their actions are questioned, the narrative is quickly turned around. I find myself being painted as the antagonist, while they assume the role of the victim. This reversal not only undermines my credibility but also garners sympathy for them from those around us, further isolating me.

Impact on Self-Perception

The cumulative effect of this control and blame-shifting has been profound. It has led to a significant reevaluation of my self-worth and identity. Being constantly blamed and manipulated has made it difficult to trust my own judgment and desires. I have had to learn to navigate these complex emotional landscapes, often feeling lost and unsure of where I stand.

Mistake in my marriage

To look back in my life, there were only 2 main significant women that molded the person I am today. The first one was Hiroe, my ex-wife. If I did not married Hiroe, I believe my life would have been a lot better, although she did gave birth to 2 most precious children if my life.

Mistake in my business

For most of my life I spent it with Ai. I believe Ai spent more time with me in her life than her own parents. She was my business partner, best friend, and also girlfriend for most part of my life until she removed me from my own business with the help of Aki who also worked with us for over 10 years. As a human being, I believe everyone have heart somewhere but Ai and Aki certainly do not seem to have any remorse for what they did. Their greediness of money made them showed their true color. But yet, I remain at somehow distance relationship with Ai and Hiroe for various reasons that seems to drag my life down.

Conclusion: Moving Forward

Reflecting on these experiences has been both painful and enlightening. It has highlighted the need for stronger personal boundaries and a clearer sense of self. While the influence of these women has been significant, it has also taught me valuable lessons about resilience and the importance of self-advocacy. Moving forward, I am committed to reclaiming my autonomy and ensuring that my needs and desires are not overshadowed by the influence of others.