My Perceived of Welcome in the Industry After 25 Years of Services

Based on my personal experience, the control of the alliances between all bars typically falls under the responsibility of a knowledgeable local expert who possesses the necessary qualifications to address any deviations from the established ethical standards set by regulatory bodies. However, with the changing dynamics of society, particularly in terms of women's empowerment and the emergence of syndicates and uneducated individuals with extensive networks, the ownership of bars is no longer strictly bound by unofficial hierarchies. Consequently, this situation creates an opportunity for freelance hosts to establish themselves unofficially in specific bars or establishments and exploit the possibilities for improved financial gain. While this concept has traditionally been viewed as disloyal, dishonest, and unethical, resulting in punitive measures against individuals or businesses engaging in such behavior, it is now increasingly perceived as a more efficient means of generating income. Those who resist conforming to societal norms are often singled out and marginalized, effectively being punished by society in a reverse manner. The existing laws governing these matters do not proactively investigate conflicts arising from this phenomenon unless specifically requested to do so. As a consequence of society's lack of a remedy for this issue, the younger generation implementing this method assumes control of the market without conducting comprehensive research or analysis of the economic conditions, instead relying solely on their own intentions and determinations.

After several years of careful observation, I have come to the realization that hostess bars do not embrace my presence. I have discerned a significant level of prejudice within this society, which they attempt to mask with insincere kindness. In their efforts to do so, they meticulously manufacture and exploit any flaws in my character to undermine me. The creation of conflicts that ultimately lead to violence is strikingly evident in the behaviors of those around me. In contrast, individuals I have met that originally came from outside of Hawaii have tragically met untimely deaths under mysterious circumstances. It is undeniable that had there been a trustworthy presence watching over them, such tragedies could have been prevented.

I strongly hold the belief that the lifestyle in Los Angeles, characterized by a sense of protection among gang members, offers a certain level of security. Conversely, in Hawaii, it appears that the entire population acts as a unified gang under the governance of the government. Throughout my years of experience in the business, I have encountered numerous individuals who presented themselves as civilians but were, in fact, government agents. These individuals have now gone into hiding. The animosity towards me began after the conclusion of my previous business venture at Club Mermaid, which was not of my choosing. During that time, it seemed that I had the support of these government individuals. However, it has now become apparent that they were actually supporting my former partner, Ai, who is the mama san.

I have come to realize the interconnectedness of the world, both in its positive and negative aspects. It is worth noting that the original syndicate on this island was comprised of Koreans, and the government agents who used to befriend me are all Korean Americans. In order to be accepted within this society's underground world, there is limited choice if one is not of Korean descent. Furthermore, it is important to acknowledge that the island's economy has long relied on the Japanese economy. The water business, for instance, was originally initiated by Koreans who were born and raised in Japan. Upon closer observation, the Japanese individuals with whom I am most familiar are those of Korean heritage, possessing a syndicate mentality.

I have consistently reflected upon my actions, and I am confident that throughout my life, I have never intentionally harmed or offended an individual of Korean descent. It deeply saddens me to realize that I do not receive any support from Koreans, as this realization strikes a painful chord within me. It seems that possessing empathy and compassion, traits that I consider to be strengths, may actually be perceived as weaknesses. Life's lessons teach us to guard our hearts and not place trust in others' capacity for empathy.

It is evident to me that not all Koreans share the same sentiments towards me. I am confident that there are numerous Koreans who genuinely embrace my friendship without any reservations. I believe those who oppose me constitute only a small fraction of what I perceive or am aware of. Even those individuals whom I have acquainted with, I hold dear the memories and opportunities they granted me to be their friend. Their identity or characteristics hold no significance to me; I simply experienced joy upon meeting them. If, in any way, I have unintentionally offended them, I extend my sincere apologies. I have never initiated any form of aggression in my life.

This is the first instance in which I genuinely believe that one can be disliked without any discernible reason, and unfortunately, there is little one can do to rectify the situation.